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Wednesday, August 08, 2018
30 years ago today.
8th Aug, 1988 or more auspiciously remembered as 08.08.88.
5 friends, all medical officers at Penang Hospital, decided to spend an evening to commemorate the occasion. Dinner at a hotel restaurant, coconut pudding dessert and a dance at the Casuarina along Ferringhi beach.
It was our 1st and last dance together. Peter, Loga, Kavi and Dolly - thanks for the memories.
Love you all 🕺❤️💃
Thursday, August 02, 2018
Sunday, July 22, 2018
But Rz was a tad different. A 39-year old who came in for abdominal surgery, he speaks English like his mother tongue & with a sense of humour, too, both a rare coincidence these days. What clinched the deal was that he supports Arsenal as well.
Then the floodgates opened. He seemed a little cheery when I do my clinical rounds & we spent a good few minutes dissecting life in general. He seemed keen to cut down some weight (20kg, no less, I advised him!!) so I suggested to him to slow-hike up the neighbourhood hill. We parted on that optimistic mood.
I'll know if he's serious about the hill climb if I meet him on the slopes. Otherwise, all bets are off.
Thursday, July 19, 2018
But this time I am touched beyond words.
I didn't arrange prior accommodation but someone offered to share his twin room.
I didn't have a car and someone else offered to lend me his.
These acts of random kindness overwhelmed me.
Thank guys. See you again in 2022.
Wednesday, July 18, 2018
Thursday, July 05, 2018
Tuesday, July 03, 2018
Saturday, April 21, 2018
I bought the 1st edition (currently, 3ed) of this book over 20 years ago, hoping to get by some of the difficult relationship with so-called friends & colleagues. And some relatives as well.
I think I still got nowhere & certainly none the wiser after more than halfway thru the book. Yes, right, so up till now, I didn't haven't finished reading it, because relationships are just too complicated.....
Then I realised I could have gotten free advice, concisely in 2 sentences, from Peter the apostle.
Be careful to live properly among your unbelieving neighbors. Then even if they accuse you of doing wrong, they will see your honorable behavior, and they will give honor to God when he judges the world. (1 Pet 2:12)
Tuesday, April 17, 2018
Monday, March 12, 2018
Friday, March 02, 2018
Finally, it's the last day of the lunar new year celebration.
This year, we made the daring decision to celebrate with the in-laws in Penang, anticipating traffic in grid-lock on the NSE. To our pleasant surprise, we think we have crack the code to avoid the perennial traffic jam.
Travel up 2 days before CNY & return on the 2nd day. traffic was generally smooth & Rest Stops weren't packed like sardines.
We were also pleasantly surprised the food stalls started operating on the 2nd day itself but that came with a premium of RM1 over the regular price (RM5).
Looks like everyone's out to make a quick buck at every possible opportunity. Talk about veg, fish (esp white pomfret) and prawns before CNY.
But I say, live & let live lah - hard times are coming & everyone's going to be affected.
Friday, February 09, 2018
Thursday, February 08, 2018
Tuesday, February 06, 2018
The good doctor (the patient, I meant :P) survived the surgery, so let's not sweat the small stuff.
Saturday, February 03, 2018
There's no doubt New Zealand is one of the most beautiful countries in the world and the South Island is where many tourists will spend most of their vacation.
My friends and colleagues are just puzzled why, having been to NZ 5 times, I still have not been to the South. And I keep repeating there's so many sights to behold in the North. Last year, my daughter and I trekked the Mt Taranaki trail at Egmont National Park in the North. It is one of the most symmetrical mountains in the world & because it resembles Mt Fuji, it was used as location shooting for the movie The Last Samurai starring Tom Cruise.
Wednesday, January 31, 2018
Last year he developed cancer of the neck, probably as a result of repeated & prolonged exposure to the radiation treatment for the NPC. He has had 3 surgeries to remove the growth on his neck & this has left him with a hoarse voice, unable to swallow properly and partially disfigured.
Today, he needed to have a feeding tube surgically inserted into his stomach to facilitate nutrition.
And then, some one I know well complained about the prices of Chinese New Year cookies.
I've looked at life from both sides now
From up and down and still somehow
It's life's illusions I recall
I really don't know life at all
Both sides now (Joni Mitchell)
Thursday, January 11, 2018
Tuesday, January 09, 2018
Tuesday, December 19, 2017
unsure of one of the papers she sat for. That got the wife in sixes and sevens, but the boy and I weren't perturbed.
Sunday, December 10, 2017
If you have seen the movie, you'll be convinced you can't escape death. The movie makers & movie-goers alike must also believe it because there were another 4 sequels after that.
I have seen three of my late colleagues in the obituary page - one from a stroke, another from a delibitating disease & the 3rd from a ravaging cancer. Then I look at myself in context & wonder whether mine will be cut short like in the movie.
If my number had been up, it would have happened years ago.
When I was about 12, I tried to mimic a pole vaulter at the home garden. Strung a rope across & used a stick to jump over. Fell awkwardly facedown & felt excruciating pain over the whole abdomen. On hindsight, I could have ruptured the liver or spleen.
When I was 14, I opened the fridge at home during a thunderstorm & felt a sharp slap-like pain at the back of my calf. Was that a teeny-weeny electrocution?
When I was 27, before I could afford a car, I rode the motorbike to do part-time locum at a clinic along Jalan Jelutong, Penang. Many times, I had to stop in the middle of the road while waiting to turn right. If you live in Penang, you will know it's a very busy road & I had to depend on the goodwill of vehicles passing behind me to keep a safe distance.
When I was 29, while driving down from Penang to KL, I drifted off to the left of the main trunk road (before the NSE was opened) & as a reflex, turned the steering wheel excessively to the right & the car jumped up the kerb & veered sharply to the opposite lane. I lived to tell the tale because there was no oncoming traffic.
My personal belief, and I stress personal, is that my time is not yet up because in the grand scheme of things, there must be a role I still need to play, the reason for my very existence, as is for everyone else who is still alive.
It is my wish that all of us do whatever we can, while we still can, for the betterment of mankind.
Saturday, December 09, 2017
nurses played a major role in my life.
my mother was one and that may have inspired me to follow a certain career pathway, but there were student nurses in the hospitals that I trained at or worked in that changed my outlook in adult life.
I thought I had found the girl of my dreams before I left for varsity. We went steady for over 3 years despite the long distance relationship & during term time, we kept in contact through public phones & letters.
It all changed when I started going to the wards during the clinical years. There was this student nurse PB in the surgical ward that drove me crazy. Her friendly & bubbly personality gave me crazy ideas. Like if I didn't see her in the morning, I would make it a point to
my preoccupation with her drove me to break off with the erstwhile girlfriend, who was distraught beyond words. what do you expect, one day it was lovey-dovey...the next, it's adieu. well, not really because our parents knew each other well, so it wasn't really a clean break.
Coming back to PB, the chemistry was definitely there but it somehow just wasn't enough to clinch the deal. The one memorable moment I spent with her wasn't alone with her but at her home with her parents during Chinese New Year. Her mum was truly charming & I was sure PB inherited that attribute from mum. We remained friends to this day.
After that, I got to know CP, a classmate of PB. Like PB, she stayed at the nurses' hostel, so it was easy to meet. CP is from Penang, so we continued where we left off after I graduated & did housemanship in Penang. Just when I thought I will clinch it this time, she married someone else - the son of the landlady she was renting from. I attended her wedding but was a tad disappointed she
Then came AE...a student nurse at the Penang Hospital. Woo hoo......she really got me eating off her fingers. Bubbly, charming & intelligent....graduated top of the class even. Even met her parents when I spent a weekend at her home. This one was definitely a "done deal" but guess what?
I got cold feet & chickened out. Eventually, she married my colleague - personally & frankly, I think she was better off with him.
Which begs the question : was I really ever ready to commit in the 1st place? Probably not because there was a string of short term relationships after that which never really took off....no lasting chemistry...no sparks.....
But three years later, the stars ignited & planets lined in place. The one I thought will never happen ....the outside bet...the dark horse....actually did. After a 2-year courtship, we married.
Oh yes, she also a nurse.
(did I not allude to this at the beginning?)
Monday, November 06, 2017
I didn't feel I had prepared well for it & I remember I had a particularly torrid time with the Biology papers. The results certainly reflected that sentiment.
How I ended up doing Medicine is a rags to riches story.
Just take my word for it - zero to hero.
Sunday, November 05, 2017
The exam starts tomorrow. It used to be called MCE when the language of instruction was still in English. It's a faint memory for me but I remember the 1st and last papers well.
Wednesday, October 11, 2017
I didn't stay long in the last class. After a couple of good monthly test results, I got promoted to J class, was made class monitor by midyear, & went on to stay in EC till 6th Form.
That was the name the BM teacher called me in Form One. She didn't know my name then & I was the only one in class with glasses.
There were 10 classes of Form One that year, Form I A to F, then J to M. I was in Form 1M, the last class.
That was an anomaly that year. The premier secondary school for boys was EC. Every smart kid wants to get in but admission is by location; you get in if you live in the area. I lived far from that & ended up in the not-so-glamorous neighbourhood school, SAB. As we were gathering to register on the 1st day of school at SAB, after much delay & confusion, we were told to report at EC the next day.
Because we were not the original EC batch, we were temporarily allocated to J-M classes and because they couldn't trace my Secondary School entrance test results, I was arbitrarily banished to the bunch-of-losers last class.
Yes, that's me, Specs, starting secondary school right at the bottom of the pit. But there's one consolation, though - from thereon, there's only only one way to go.
Tuesday, October 10, 2017
Some one took the trouble to create such a day. I wouldn't have known about it had not someone posted on FB.
Not sure how to celebrate it, if at all. For me, all I want is for the patient to leave the operating room alive and healed.
That alone is reward enough.
Sunday, October 08, 2017
it was a pretty good week...
the real Unifi guys finally turned up.....I meant not the earlier pretenders who came & checked up the place and yadda.....yadda......yadda......can only do internal wiring....Telekom need to pull the external wires from the router box....RM500 excluding the modem....
a whole month after registering for it, the earlier installers really gave me the run-around.....and finally, Unifi finally sent these fellas who did everything in one go, for just extra RM200.
oh yes, there are more than a few installers out to make a quick buck.
and finally, got the daughter's accommodation sorted out for the next (and last) 2 years of her course. every year at this time, since she has been in varsity, we agonized whether she could secure a place to stay near the varsity and we are glad this predicament is a thing of the past.
hope your week has been good, too.
Sunday, September 24, 2017
My colleague's son is having his wedding dinner at an upmarket hotel.
For the 1st time ever, in addition to the menu, this was placed on the table...
Personally, I didn't think it was a good idea. It's as if the diners don't already have enough of surfing at home, at work or while waiting at the traffic lights. But then it's the sign of the times. Even if the free wifi is not provided, most will already have their own data plans anyway, but with this added service, it will certainly encourage more people to surf in between & during dishes.
So, if you don't mind, just hold the yam seng while I reply to my WhatsApp message.
Saturday, September 23, 2017
Bonus Commandment Story.
** #8 is my personal favourite**
Friday, September 22, 2017
that, in latin, means 1st, do no harm.
i've not always adhered to that principle - blame it on immaturity, anger, or just plain callousness. i recalled an incident very early in my training when the senior consultant of the department ( aka The Boss) hauled me into his office to give me a mouthful.
on that morning, i had a dispute with a consultant of another department over the management of a child. in anger, i walked out on the child, to whom i had just given some sedation. that consultant rightly complained to my Boss about what i just did (the argument & subsequent abandonment of the child) & that was just 1 of many reprimands for wrongdoing in my career. yeah, i was a serial offender - bad, bad doctor!
however, i learned valuable lessons that day....
1st, my patient becomes my responsibility, no matter what i had for breakfast, how miserable i felt or who i fought with. his well-being is my priority.
2nd, to err is human, to forgive is divine. my Boss censured me in the privacy of his office, thereby sparing me the humiliation of a public flogging. that, IMHO, constituted a pardon in itself, & till this day, i appreciated that magnanimous gesture. therefore, it was with much sadness when i read last year that he had passed away from cancer.
so, it's ok to be human - to resent, to antagonise, to show displeasure. were we not from the fallen beings of eden? paul has this valuable counsel:
"in your anger do not sin. do not let the sun go down while you are still angry, and do not give the devil a foothold." ephesians 4 : 26,27
** this post is a saved draft from 2007. I don't remember why I didn't post it then, but here it is...a reminder to myself that it's OK to start badly but must finish strong **
Tuesday, September 19, 2017
Whatever, there will still be an additional (but unnecessary) of RM124 plus GST to the patient's bill.
Monday, September 18, 2017
Saturday, September 16, 2017
Wednesday, September 13, 2017
I met up with an ex-colleague over the weekend after a lapse of 26 ( yes, TWENTY SIX !!) years. And we both concurred that we didn't change much physically, as we immediately recognised each other.
Tuesday, September 12, 2017
T was my Best Bud in secondary school. We clicked because of our interest in chess and football. I then came to know his family very well.
Thursday, September 07, 2017
My Primary One class teacher, Pn RB, passed away last year. I've only fond memories of her. You see, I was the proverbial teacher's pet & it helped that my parents were friends with her.
This 60+ gentleman has been with the hospital since it started in 1990. He's an operating theatre assistant, preparing the room & helping the surgeons during surgeries. Very likeable chap & adept at his work.
Preparing the OT is like a pre-flight check. Would you board a plane scheduled to take-off at 2pm when the crew only starts checking at 2pm? Which means the flight can't possibly take off at 2pm. As if there aren't enough delays already!!
Wednesday, September 06, 2017
I was at the stadium to watch the Malaysia v Hong Kong AFC qualifying game, as I wanted to savour again the "live" experience of a competitive football match.
What a difference it was from watching in the comfort of home!! I never realised there was a section where local fans called ultras congregate and sing patriotic songs to the beat of drums...
...and no, I didn't hear them sing anything offensive to their opponents.
Speaking of patriotism, I am convinced sports is one unifying activity (food being the other) that transcends age, gender, race and religion. In unison, the crowd cheered when we scored the equalising goal & in one voice, boo-ed vociferously at the referee when he unfairly awarded an injury time penalty to the visitors. But just was served when HK missed the penalty. woo hoo!! unfortunately the stadium was less than a quarter filled, so the intense atmosphere was sadly missed.
Because it was windless, the air was a tad stale & reeking of cigarette smoke. I also missed the action replay like on television. I got distracted momentarily & completely missed the 1st goal.
Despite the unique experience at the stadium, I doubt if I would be back any time soon....
.....unless Barcelona or Real Madrid comes to town.
Tuesday, September 05, 2017
Monday, September 04, 2017
so also with the Malaysian F1 racing for the last time this month. this after the initial novelty of 1999 has worn off, plus the more attractive night race further south (alcohol on freeflow, city centre location, and entertainment by One Direction, Seal, Chainsmokers & Duran2), it's not surprising that something has to give.
with Proton, Bandar Malaysia, Forest City & Iskandar, amongst others, sold to foreign interests, the signs aren't good.
let's hope the F1nale is only restricted to motorsports racing.
Saturday, September 02, 2017
My orthopaedic colleague in another hospital is ranting.
Every time he sends patients to the Xray department, either
1) the queue is long,
2) the report takes ages to be issued
and worst of all....
3) the report is unreliable, inaccurate or inconclusive.
So, imagine you are the patient. You arrive at the clinic at 9am, see the doctor at 10am, go to the Xray department at 10.30am to see a long queue before you, get the Xray/scan done at 1pm, & wait for the report which is issued only at 4pm, and go back to the clinic only for the doctor to tell you that the diagnosis remains uncertain.
And you may need another scan.
You spent the whole day & loads of cash only to return to square 1.
You are upset, the doctor is upset and the cycle repeats itself.
No wonder my colleague is ranting.
Monday, August 28, 2017
Sunday, August 27, 2017
Satay without peanut sauce;
English breakfast without bacon;
Nasi lemak without sambal;
Cendol without gula melaka;
ABC without red beans...
Saturday, August 26, 2017
My father used to work with the British army in Singapore. We were quite financially well off. Staying in the clan's home, we had 2 rooms & we were the 1st family with a TV. We eventually moved out to our own home.
When the Brits withdrew, he was laid off. We tightened our belts during this difficult period. He then worked for a while with a timber company in Temerloh (Pahang) & then Paka (Trengganu), which means he was away from home a lot. When the company closed down, he came back & became a driving instructor. I still mention with much pride that I was taught by him.
He's always been thrifty in his spending. In fact, when we go to the supermarket, he'll just wait outside because he said he has nothing to buy while we filled our trolley with groceries.
I still retained that DNA. Which is why I was ecstatic when I found this ......
After all, I AM my father's son. I think I'll wear this to church tomorrow.
Friday, August 25, 2017
my daughter says she wants to do internal medicine. either that, or cancer research.
i feel it's good to have an ambition. at least, there's something to look forward, and work towards, to. an objective to focus & channel one's energy & time.
but the wise man has this to say....
Many are the plans in a person’s heart, but it is the Lord’s purpose that prevails. (prov 19:21)
i should know. after all i wanted to be a bus conductor, and then an aviation engineer.
see how i turned out.
Thursday, August 24, 2017
Wednesday, August 23, 2017
I love this class USSB. Upper Six Science B.
Marvelous Chemistry, Biology, and General Paper teachers, and special mention to the late Mr GV Pillai, Physics teacher. I did apply to be an engineer, you know, but I digress.
And my beloved classmates who were comrade-in-arms in work & play.
I'd like to think you've all impacted my life as much as I have yours.
Tuesday, August 22, 2017
Monday, August 21, 2017
It's often proclaimed that wherever we are, whatever we do, it's for a reason. Like if we had not gone there, then ...... or, If we hadn't done that, then...........
If you are religious, you'd feel it's even like a divine decree.
Last Wednesday, I was at such a place and time. My scheduled case didn't not take place & at 4pm, I was just walking pass the surgical ward, getting ready to change & go off.
I got an urgent call from that ward that one of the patients I had anaesthesied earlier that morning was having a convulsion & was not conscious.
I was by the bedside before you could say Code Blue. With the help of the nurses, we proceeded to do CPR. Although the heart momentarily stopped beating, we managed to restart it because prompt action was instituted early, which is the essence of CPR anyway.
The stay in ICU was quite stormy, and we weren't sure if the patient has suffered brain damage because he remained unconscious for 2 days after that. But on the 3rd day, as we scheduled him for CT scan of the brain, he suddenly opened his eyes & started to respond to instructions.
All I could say was Hallelujah. It felt like a religious decree that I was at that place at that time.
The patient was discharged very much alive from hospital today.
Wednesday, August 16, 2017
In a way, looking back, I felt I was indifferent at best & negligent at worst.
The nurse called me last night about a late admission. This patient was supposed to have surgery this afternoon & I would usually see & assess on the morning of the surgery. Not knowing any detail of this patient, I refrained from giving any medical advice over the phone, lest it was inappropriate. Besides, once I start getting involved, I know the nurses will call me for every discomfort the patient may complain of throughout the night.
Therein lies my predicament. I am a doctor and yet I want a good nite of uninterrupted sleep, because I am not on call.
At my age, I dislike, & try to avoid, on-call duties, because I am on my worst behaviour without sleep.
Tuesday, August 08, 2017
Sunday, August 06, 2017
It's time for the daughter to pick the hospital elective posting for next year.
Her 1st choice is a popular district hospital 160km away because there are more hands-on & practical experiences there. She will have to find new accommodation in the district & may be on the road often.
The 2nd is the city hospital only 12km away & 25 mins by train. On top of that, she already lives near the train station. For logistic reasons, being a foreign student, I much preferred she remained in the city.
As it turned out, she was allotted the city hospital. I was glad. And I forgot to mention that had she been posted to the district, she planned on getting a car & driving the 320 km round trip every week.
Thursday, August 03, 2017
i was on-call & the 1st case for the day was a 70+ year old lady for a DHS insertion, a procedure to fix a broken hip. the standard anaesthetic technique in that hospital was to give a general anaesthetic supplemented with a local anaesthetic (epidural).
the general anaesthetic went smoothly but i had some difficulty with the lumbar epidural, resulting in the accidental puncture of the dura. instead of abandoning the epidural & just have the general anaesthetic, i proceeded against better judgement to attempt again at a different (higher) level. after administrating the full 20mls of the local anaesthetic, true to form, the blood pressure crashed & the patient heart stopped. resuscitation was unsuccessful.
i can't tell you how angry i was with myself for such a novice mistake. maybe i was indifferent, maybe i was over-confident but i will never, ever forget how a lapse in concentration resulted in this unnecessary death. one good thing that came out of this was the unwavering support the consultants gave me, even at the inquiry for peri-operative morbidity and mortality.
i want to believe this made me a better doctor today & that death was not in vain.
Tuesday, August 01, 2017
Having worked at the hospital for 25 years, from a shoplot practice to a new independent medical centre, and then to be part of a major healthcare chain, you'd think she'd be missed when she finally retires.
Truth be told, I can't remember the last time I have worked with a nurse so obnoxious, I just dread if we had to assist surgery in the same theatre.
I won't miss her. Seriously. Honestly.
Monday, July 31, 2017
In my 1st job in the UK, I was waiting for the hospital transport to get me to another hospital. As the van stopped in front of the lobby, a middle-aged gentleman in a full suit, coat, tie & all, disembarked from the vehicle. Trying to be friendly, I approached him.....
Me: Hi, is this the van to the WH hospital?
Him : Yes, indeed it is.
Me : By the way, I am Dr T & I am the new SHO. And you are Dr........?
Him : I am Ray & I am the hospital porter.
Lesson #1 : in the UK, most men in the service industry, from top down, wear full suits.
Lesson #2 : Introduction is commonly by 1st names.
Therein, began my memorable 4-year sojourn in a foreign country.
Saturday, July 29, 2017
My friend's daughter is having her wedding reception dinner tonite. I am going to be late. I am thinking about the peer pressures of the modern day matching of life long mates.
I sensed that my friend was a bit disappointed. You see, the bride is a dentist and it would be expected by some quarters that she would pick someone with a similar honorific, e.g. Dr. Whether she wouldn't or couldn't doesn't matter, at least to me. I played table tennis with the guy last week and from that brief encounter, I was impressed with his soft spoken manners & politeness.
Doesn't matter if he's just plain looking or just an architect. He's in for the long haul. A successful marriage goes beyond looks & vocations. They both love God & that counts for everything.
And love is all they need.
Congrats, Ivan & Yen.
Friday, July 28, 2017
I've always thought that I have fostered a blood-is-thicker-than-water bond with both my kids.
It's our (the boy's & mine) ritual to have breakfast on Saturdays when we have no commitments - he, to the school and extra-curricular activities, & I, to the hospital. Usually we'd have either the chicken briyani or tosai/canai. Yes, we're that set in our ways. So when I asked him today if we are OK for breakfast at 9.30am tomorrow, he said it depends if he could wake up on time.
His response rankled me a bit; if he really enjoy having breakfast with me, he'd make every attempt to get up by that time, as I would. Besides, 9.30am is not that early by any measure.
I know when kids grow up, they often have their own circle of friends which they would want to hang out & chill out with, at the expense of the family
But I'd rather hope he'd choose dad over sleep. We'll see.....
Sunday, July 23, 2017
Friday, July 21, 2017
Made this decision in 1979 & never looked back since.
Through thick & thin, sleepless nites in the four seasons, forgoing social activities & staying beyond appointed working hours (what's that?), in life & in death, the Lord sustained me.
I have found my calling.